Monday, January 17, 2011

Faith and Money

I'm realizing that what I thought was faith was just a good idea knocking around in my head.  I'm not sure how to explain it.  Let start by saying my finances are a mess, well not really a mess, I mean I meticulously budget my money every single month.  I have a black and white composition notebook (I know, retro), and every month I list every single bill I have. 

My pay usually does not cover my expenses, so I go about my month having faith that God will provide . . .

. . . that's a LIE.  I usually do not trust God that he will take care of my finance.  I usually just go about my life spending money I don't have, even though I write down my budget.  I might say a couple of half hearted prayers but when it comes down to it I don't have much faith. 

This month has been different.  It's been so uncomfortable but SOOOOO worth the feeling of being out of control.  You might have remembered that I lost my child support for 10 months back in June, you can read about it here.  Adding to my financial worries is my electric bill.  I'm on the budget plan meaning my bill is the same for 12 months.  Well after the horrendous summer we had (heat wise) and our air conditioning being on 24/7 and the fact we have a huge (non-energy efficient) house our payments were not enough on the budget plan.  This basically means for the next 4 months I have to pay the difference which means my electric bill is $519 a month for the next 4 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I have a knot in my stomach just thinking about it!!!

So anyway this month I am really challenging myself to have FAITH.  I'm really depending on God to take care of my finances. 

Here are just a couple of ways God has blessed me financially so far this month:
  • Rayne's driver's license was only $6 instead of $40 like I thought.
  • Autumn's orthodontist does not want to start her braces work until next year, therefore I have $2000.00 for medical expenses this year that I thought I was going to use for her braces.
  • My car insurance did not go up when I added Rayne to the policy as a permitted driver.
  • I have consistently had Adoption work to supplement to my income.
I am amazed at the little things that are happening that let me know God is in control. 

I will be adding to this list as God continues to bless me. 

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