Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Blah, Blah, Blah

Right now I hate myself
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah,
I know I'm not supposed to hate myself
but I do
so there

I have gained a substantial amount
of weight back
since my gastric bypass surgery

You know
the surgery I fought so hard to get
the surgery that almost killed me
the surgery that helped me
lose a whopping 120 pounds!!!!

Yeah that one
you know, June 11, 2008
I arrived

it's not easy
it's not like i expected
i didn't think i would be able to eat
like i do

at first
i couldn't
oh and I hated it

the weight came off though
but then
i discovered
what i could eat
and get away with it!!!!

How much have you gained back????
gulp . . .
44 pounds

I'm not giving up though!!!
I can do this!!!!
Today is a new day!!!!!
I found a support network!!!!!
I started my way back!!!!
It's called the 5 Day Pouch Test!!!
DAY 1 and 2 is liquids!!!!!
Day 3 is soft proteins!!!
Day 4 is firm proteins!!!!
Day 5 is solid proteins!!!!
Day 6 and beyond is eating right!!!!

I'm excited!
I started Day 1 today!!!!!!
I survived 30 days on liquids before my surgery.
Surly I can survive 2 measly days!!!
My pouch is healing as we speak!!!

I never did get down to my goal weight after surgery.
Baby steps.
My first goals is to lose the 44 pounds I gained.
Then I want to lose 38 more.
Then 20 more.
Baby steps.
Let's concentrate on the 44 first!!!!

Ok, Ok, I don't hate myself anymore!!!!!

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