Wednesday, June 17, 2009


Last night Autumn looked like an Angel.

When I got home at 8:30pm she was playing Wii Bowling with her cousin.

I laid down on the couch.

I told her she had 10 minutes until bedtime.

She said OK.

Excuse me?


When her time was up she put down the remotes and laid on top of me.

I rubbed her back and she asked when the Child Study Team "lady" was going to test her. I told her Friday and that I would be there. She said "OK".

There it is again . . . OK????!!!!??????

I then told her it was time to go downstairs and she got up making silly faces, I looked into her eyes and she smiled a huge "AUTUMN" smile. I told her she was BEAUTIFUL.

Do you ever look at your children and wonder how you got so lucky? I did last night. Thank you Jesus for such a special child!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009


Autumn is out of control.

Not all the time but some of the time.

I have two different daughters in one little body, check that . . . I have two different daughters in one growing-stronger-every-day body.

One minute she can be the sweetest girl, getting along with everyone and then the next she will be a self-stimming, drooling, growling monster.

She is getting stronger, more oppositional, and more rigid. She has been sent home from school twice in the last two weeks.

She refuses to be tested by the child study team.

On the one occasion she was sent home from school she had a good morning doing her work, she then went outside for playtime, then she came back in for reading. She refused to read, started to kick her feet and bang her desk. She continued to shuffle her feet on the ground in a repetitious manor for over 30 minutes, by the time I picked her up it was an hour.

I got her home and she continued to rub her bare feet together in a self-stimming sort of way. I made her go clean her room, after 15 minutes in her room by her self she came up upstairs with her laundry in her hands and began doing her laundry, she was calm, happy and talking to me like nothing ever happened.

When putting her in time-out I have resorted to how she was at 5 years old, I have to physically drag her in the bathroom, close the door on her and sit in front of the door so she can't get out.

She will bang the door with her feet or hands, trash the bathroom and then finally calm down. She knows her 3 minute time-out does not start until she is calm. These time outs can last up to 20 minutes sometimes and she bangs the door so hard I think it's going to break.

She gets down right mean with her 4-year-old cousin who we live with. She does not let her look at her. If Riley looks at her she grunts and screams. Of course this is not all the time just some times, other times she plays really nice with her.

The other kids in the house have adapted around her. They know that when Autumn comes in the room to get out of her seat, if they don't it's an all out war.

The littlest things set her off now. She goes from 0 to 90 agitation wise in a few seconds.

The other day her cousin sat down next to her, she did not like this and she flipped out. She started to stomp her feet, grunt, and drool, my father said her eyes were rolling in the back of her head. He did not know what to do with her. Counting to 3 use to work but it does nothing now, she does not even flinch when we start to count.

On one instance she crawled into the back of our coat closet and buried herself. She buries herself a lot. She will take all the cushions off the couch and go under them. One day my sister put her in timeout in my room and she destroyed it.

Today my sister had to restrain her, she did not like this, of course.

Everything is NO, NO, NO.

She has so much anger.

Everything bothers her.

When we are not with family she does not connect at all with people. Her affect is completely blank.

We went out to eat and bowling with church friends and the entire time she did not smile. If we were with my family she would laugh and smile but not with other people other than my family.

I'm not sure what to do anymore.

Her mood swings scare me.

It's like she is regressing back to when she was 5 but now she is bigger and stronger.

I'm desperate . . . what do I do?

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Introducing the newest Trouwbottom!

I am happy to introduce the newest member of the Trouwbottom family!!!! Meet Mbali! She is a beautiful 10 year old girl from Swaziland, Africa. We have decided to sponsor Mbali through CHILDREN'S HOPECHEST.

Mbali lives in the country of Swaziland, located in southern Africa. Swaziland has the highest rate of HIV/AIDS in the world producing thousands of orphaned and vulnerable children. Current statistics show that a child of 15 has a one in ten chance to live to 35.

Mbali's current home is a 20 minute walk from the Beveni carepoint where she lives with her uncle and aunt and 10 other children. Mbali recieves her education at Thembini Primary School and is in the third grade (JUST LIKE AUTUMN!).

We have committed to send money each month to Mbali which will help her grow physically, emotionally, mentally, educationally, and spiritually. We have also committed to pray and write to Mbali each month.

We are so excited! Autumn was instramental in picking out Mbali from several profiles of orphaned children in Africa. Please pray for our newest member of the TROUWBOTTOM CLAN!!!!