15 years ago I was just nineteen years old. During this exact time, I was pregnant with my first daughter Rayne. I was 4-5 months pregnant and taking classes at Brookdale Community College toward my Associates Degree. I lived life as if I was unstoppable. I was determined to finish my education even though I was pregnant, not married, and living with my parents. I worked at my parents flower shop on weekends and any day I didn't have class.
10 years ago I was twenty-four years old and attending Fordham University in Manhattan, NY. I was in school for my Masters of Social Work. I would take the train into the city every Saturday and Wednesday. Rayne was four, almost five, years old then and would spend every Saturday with her fathers parents. I was very involved with my church, I taught Sunday school to 3rd, 4th, and 5th graders every week, I was the coordinator of the summer's Vacation Bible School, and I led a teen girl's small devotional group.
5 years ago I was twenty-nine years old with 2 daughters. Rayne was 9 years old and Autumn was 3. We were just beginning to see signs of all Autumn's problems. I was living on my own in Ocean Grove and loving life. I broke away from my old church and found a wonderful church that I remain at today, Grace Christian.
3 years ago I was thirty-one years old. Rayne was 11 and Autumn was 6. I was going through a particularly rough time in my life. Autumn's struggle for adjustment and our fight for a diagnosis was in full swing. Financially I was a mess, I had just filed for bankruptcy and was so depressed some days I couldn't get out of bed but through the grace of God I moved on because of my children.
1 year ago, I was thirty-three years old. Life was and still is good. This exact day was the day before Autumn asked Jesus to be her Lord and Savior, Praise God!!!! This was also the day we landed in the ER because she fell out of a tree and had a tree limb impaled in her thigh!!!! 14 stitches later and a visit to the pediatric surgeons office to get a piece of wood that was still in there, Autumn has a beautiful scar on her left thigh!
Today, I did not want to wake up, as usual, I am NOT a morning person, AT ALL! I have 2 interviews and a whole lot of work!!! Then I will go see Rayne play soccer at the high school, and come home, make dinner, and help the kids with their homework. I also will remember to praise God for all he has done for me!
Tomorrow, I will hate waking up again! I have a funeral to go to of one of my favorite clients :(! I also Have 5 interviews, hopefully a couple of them I can hire!!!! Oh and Autumn has Therapeutic Horseback riding tomorrow too!